Friday, December 25, 2009

Fever

It scared me deeply. I was disrupted and somehow invaded.
I wanted to be let be, the rest of me, the used part of that defenceless being.
Just drag me, pull me and resize me, shape me into something new and indestructible.
I was just a fantasy in the middle of it all.
No reaction was sensed from me.
Just willingness to participate.
Just give me, bless me with it all, and let me taste it, you.
Slowly all the corruption took part of me and I was no longer me.
There was hollowness and a slice of hope in place of the then me.
Was I ready to restart.
Should I just keep still? Questioning something foreign and yet so well known.
Confusion took place and the darkness that blinded me was replaced by all that light that was just as blinding.
“Let me escape!” my inner would shout.
“Let me forget!”
My conscious pleads for it, but it remained there.
And still is.